Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee

Since yesterday's post was kinda depressing, I decided to post today, now that I'm happier, to balance it out.

I read a lot of Webcomics, and this fact has given me a tremendous advantage. Because even though I wasn't drawing my whole life, I was usually reading the blog posts of the artists. So I know artsy things!

Unfortunately, this means sometimes I hear about some kind of technology they have, and I bemoan my lack of it. Artists have some seriously cool tech sometimes.

Like those computers where you can draw on the screen with one of those special pens? Oh my god. So sexy. I want one.

However, I have no idea what it's called,  and it's probably incredibly expensive. Theoretically, you could do the same thing on an iPad with your finger-- I have a couple of apps that let you draw on them and stuff-- but I have to zoom in a lot. And of the two apps I have that do this (which were, compared to most apps, incredibly expensive themselves) only give you one size of document. Sure, you can crop it and stuff. But the point is, it's kind of unwieldy for what I wanted to do.

Plus, there's the whole matter of me sucking at drawing on the computer.

I know I've said this before, but it frustrates me to no end. Because of the way I sort of taught myself to draw (which was doodling stuff randomly) my style didn't need to be very clean. Because on paper, I can do it in a way that still looks good.

But on the computer, I can't really do that. Because I can zoom in and see every tiny flaw in amaaaazing detail. Then I try to fix it, and it's really obvious I tried to fix it.

Plus, on the computer, I always feel like I should do, you know, color and shading and folds and stuff. Which I never really learned to do. >_>

The joys of having no formal training whatsoever.

I mean, sure there are people who are self-taught who are still really good and stuff. But that's because they always took their art seriously. I didn't really do that-- art was just a fun thing I liked to do. And I always figured I wouldn't be good enough to play with the big boys, so I never tried really hard to learn and perfect and make it gorgeous. I just dicked around to pass the time and have some fun.

So going from "well, I doodle and stuff sometimes" to the realm of Serious Artists (which I kind of think is hilarious sometimes) makes me really nervous. Some of the Serious Artists are also really snobby, so I've always liked to poke fun at them in my head.

Gah. I actually have to work hard at art now. So weird.

I kind of hope that the Art College I pick will have a vibe like my drawing class next quarter will. I know the professor, and I've actually taken his class before-- I just couldn't finish it due to a really severe illness-- so I know it's a good atmosphere. Dale (he tells us to call him that) is really nice and relaxed and--

OH MY GOD I'M A DUMBASS. Why didn't I think to ask the Professor about Art College recommendations?!

Wow. Why the hell didn't I think of that before?

Bah. Oh well. I thought of it now.

Well, this should be interesting.